Lay Gnosis Feedback 8 Adam in the UK

Steve please do tell me more about yourself and your life story I have been reading your previous emails very much to my enjoyment. Once again Steve when you said k rise will emphasise that your existence is entirely dependant on the whim of God I am feeling this and understanding this now more than ever. Once again I find myself experiencing so much happiness as I am seeing video clips of my life and how this ties in directly with what you said about how source loves service to others because I am seeing videos of myself and all the wonderful interactions I have had with my parents and my siblings and individuals who are like me. Once again just like you said Steve k rise will emphasise that your existence is completely dependant on the whim of God, as I am reading your previous emails I understand this now more than ever, once again Steve it is no coincidence that I have come across you when I first came across yourself and truebluehealer I was shocked at just how much you resembled me it was like I was literally looking into a mirror 

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 Steve when you said you too were a loner like me just like that something clicked inside me as I saw so many videos playing in my head of how I never identified with my classmates at school of how I always kept myself to myself I would always be completely immersed in my own imagination I would see  source in my mind’s eye doing an excellent job of entertaining me and once again just like that I would find myself in an almost perpetual state of joy and laughter I would always be smiling my entire life I would always be joyous beyond measure ecstatic beyond measure, life loving beyond measure. Once again Steve I can never thank you enough to me you are a saint you always have been and you always will be 

We have never had a hardrinking fornicating loud mouthed life of-the-party type come near the website

But when I was asked to publicise LG via a website I complained I wasn’t very well suited to the task, because I wasn’t really a showbiz type of person who enjoys being the centre of attention. I have a natural tendency to prefer solitude, And my chemistry doesn’t light up when I meet people as extroverts chemistry does. And because other people always seem to want me to make concessions for their social needs. . So immediately I am restricted. I feel a bit confined. So I sort of “advised” source…… LOL me advising source….. actually said ummm you would be surely better off if you engaged a show biz type person for this job……. The reply was immediate and angry and very firm I chose YOU ! And there is no other.

So I sort of went Oh…. OK…. I’ll get onto it right away, Chief. (Not having a clue how to do it, I couldn’t even make a website)

It unexpectedly proved a wise choice because I was very qualified, I came to realise, as I produced the website. My interests over the years included Nutrition 3 yr course, Electricity, Medical Electronics. ( I did a 12 month course) So I am well versed in how nervous systems work with action potentials bucket brigading thru synapses, along axons making muscles contract, hearts beat etc. Which all gave me a good grasp of brain wave EEG coherence measured on a spectrum analyzer. Later, while building the site, I was nudged into buying a medical book I couldn’t afford. I was taken there 3 times thumbed thru this wonderful book but it was a hundred dollars which I didn’t have spare at the time. 4th time I was marched into the shop I surrendered. The book had some wonderful content and explained how K rise first started in the Left big toe and was detectable and this had been discovered at Maharishi University in Europe. I felt very much at home with that because it was the TM people doing that research. 25 yrs I had done TM. I was greatly gratified that K rise was hard science that can be detected thru the skin with electrodes. So its not just mysticism. Marvellous diagram I copied into the site, of areas of the brain that correspond to various parts of the body when pricked. Hard science again. Great story of how very real K rise is in everyone’s physiology.

And looking back then, I began to question whether I had been nudged even as a sleepwalker into doing all these activities in preparation for producing TBH.

I also have a strong interest in Psychology and I pondered for months how to phrase things to offend or scare off the least number of people, and convey meanings with maximum clarity, thinking of the many personality types and overcome all the bloody baggage that keeps people sleepwalking obsessed with theme park earth, completely ignoring their divine origin

So I had to deal with an audience of many disparate groups such as atheists, agnostics fundamentalists, average secular people, yobbos who have no opinions on anything, bright people, dull people, creatives, authoritarians ,extroverts introverts etc. How to make one process for all of those personality types was quite a challenge, teaching them something they had never heard of.

After I got the site going I discovered a whole new species of people the pseudoskeptics. These are people who read evolution books before breakfast and adopt it as an alternative religion and spend their whole lives headkicking christians online. Most of them are low IQ and suffer Aspergers Syndrome. They are a product of the US bible belt. And many of them are deeply traumatised by their discovery that Santa Clause is a complete myth made up for children, and most kids work this out, but it never occurred to them so they were still believing in Santa when they were 14 and when the truth finally dawns on them the effect is devastating. They believe they have been lied to by everybody. But deep down they know they are just too gullible and self hatred turns their life into a misery. They swear to never believe anything ever again. Gullible is one of their marker words. They accuse everyone else, Christians in particular, of being so “gullible” Why Christians ? because of the common date December 25. If Santa Clause is devastatingly false so must be religion. Its all LIES ! .One can find 50 yr old men still complaining about this teen trauma on the NET. They become Militant Atheists that plague the internet. And they are employed, certainly their tactics are, by corporations, governments, political parties and Intelligence organisations.

So I had to think of these groups various fears, their motivations, their knowledge base and all the word traps that would trigger them into a brain freeze. I often felt I was plotting my way thru a minefield.

My interest in psychology I get from my Mum she is very good at getting people to reveal themselves to her. I am too. A psychiatrist got to know me very well and after explaining gnosis to him, which he had an extreme aversion to, being a fundamentalist Christian who trained for the priesthood, he said one day, Steve I have finally figured out what you really are. You are a psychiatrist. My Mother rolled up laughing at that pronouncement.

you are a saint you always have been” Funny that’s what source told me when I was awakened. An angel, I was told. But that’s probably said to many awakening people.

10 yrs before the internet, while I was still a sleepwalker, My mother visited an old lady gnostic who did readings for 20 dollars. I had already visited the old lady and got a reading and it was fascinating. My Whole family went. But not all together. Oleahn only asked first name and then spoke for about 45 minutes and she provided the tape recording. I was astonished at what she knew about me, she provided a long list of what I had done in previous lives. The longest list of lives she had ever been given, she remarked. At the time I felt she was inside me as she provided such detail of my life. I was very impressed but puzzled. And asked her Whats going on in your head right now ? Do you just hear a voice or what ? She wasn’t much good at explaining her process. About a week later she made a surprise phone call to my brick cell phone and told me something out of the blue. She said– Advice for you- make sure you drink plenty of water which I found non plussing. Thanked her for the advice.

In a few days I became very ill with very odd symptoms, so serious. I was admitted to hospital for testing. Without telling me they thought I had AIDS initially.

Blood tests were very difficult because they couldnt get blood out of my arm. Because it was sludge. I had picked up some odd virus that completely disabled my thirst reflex. I just forgot to drink. While feeling terribly tired and weak. They gave me a lot of water which thinned my blood and they just said I had a no name viral infection.

But I was greatly impressed by Oleahn the fortune teller calling me in advance while she was 100 miles away to warn me to drink water.

Other family members got session tapes from her and listened to them carefully. She predicted in some people’s lives things considered to be outrageously impossible though she never said what year or time. She did see images, and people said even her most outrageous predictions actually came true over a 3 yr period. In very surprising ways. Quite often there was a language mismatch which caused bafflement because she used very average common language with only a modest vocabulary. In one case she said she could see my sister painting a staircase. That was coming. Though my sisters house didn’t have a staircase. 6 months later she found herself painting a friends staircase and her husband pointed it out. Many instances of this.

Now unbeknownst to me my mother privately went to see Oleahn and asked about MY future and kept it all a secret for about 20 yrs. One day she got the old session tape out and played it. Oleahn said I would do something so unusual so unique so mystifying it would seem to be beyond thought.

She was describing TBH connecting people to God in 20 minutes. But long before the Internet existed. With a small vocabulary she certainly was at a disadvantage to describe in words what I do, today. But she did quite well in her description, I thought.

This emphasises to me that our whole lives are known in advance and the future is only a blank to sleepwalkers.

While doing this page I am also building some kitchen cupboards I enjoy woodwork, have made my own large tablesaw. Have every power tool you can think of. Am very much a DIY person. Very left brain analytical. Constantly solving problems. And that’s genetic. My sisters son is described to me as “just like YOU he knows how Everything works” and he drives like an idiot sliding round corners, and dents his BMW sports car. I drove rally cars in my misspent youth. Doing just that. Oh those were the days.

And my sister is a gifted school teacher who has won State Government awards for finding new ways to teach reading to special needs children. Learning disabled kids.

Once again I find myself experiencing so much happiness as I am seeing video clips of my life and how this ties in directly with what you said about how source loves service to others

I have tried to explain this to fundamentalists that judgment doesn’t happen on the last day after we are all dead as per holy books. And lotsa people get thrown into hell or something. Judgment is continuous. Which you are now experiencing Adam. When it happened to me, I was greatly amused at what source found fascinating. Out of the blue it was noted, that my Dad in the British Army was a peacekeeper in Israel in 1948 the year of their independence and he visited Nazareth to see where JC was born. And the Garden of Gethsemane. My Dad got some brownie points for that. Then source went back to my record collection playing lots of my records. Admiring the covers and stuff.

This will do for now.

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